Sigh. Happy?

Hello all!
What a long strange month this has been. Unrequited love should be getting easier than it seems to be but alas, it still feels like my soul is being ripped out of my belly with a crochet hook when it strikes. However, my recovery period is greatly lessened by the amazing people that I have in my life.
I fail to understand how with a life so full and wonderful I still feel like strange need for a significant other. I was talking to a friend last night, and was trying to explain that when I got married, even though I was very young (21) I was READY to get married. Had I not picked someone who ended up being very controlling, abusive and just generally unhealthy, I'm sure I would have remained happily married for a long time. But alas, controlling abusive and unhealthy she was....

But for now..... I'm sleeping to dream about someone I haven't met yet. That I know is out there, waiting for me;

i'm dreaming of sleeping
next to you
and feeling like a lost little boy
in a brand new town

i'm counting my sheep
and each one that passes
is another dream to ashes
and they all fall down

and as i lay me down tonight
i close my eyes
what i beautiful sight

i'm sleeping to dream about you
and i'm so damn tired
of having to live without you
but i, i don't mind
i'm sleeping to dream about you
and i'm so tired

i found myself in the riches
your eyes your lips your hair
oh you were everywhere
out there

but i woke up in the ditches
i hit the light and thought you might be here
but you were no where
you were nowhere at home

and as i lay me back to sleep
this love i pray that, that i can keep

i'm sleeping to dream about you
and i'm so damn tired
of having to live without you
but i, i don't mind
i'm sleeping to dream about you
and i'm so tired

just a little lullabye
to keep myself from crying
my self to sleep
from crying myself to sleep at night
just a little lallabye
to keep myself from crying

i'm sleeping to dream about you
and i'm so damn tired
of having to live without you
but i, i don't mind
i'm sleeping to dream about you
i'm so tired


sigh..... Jason Mraz makes everything better doesn't he?